Saturday, November 14, 2009
soon to be 19.11.09... which marks the 3rd year of our relationship... sometimes i really wonder how i ended up with him... it seems so unusual.. i dont know how to explain.. haha but im glad i did...
I miss the times where we go out for supper at chong pang after work.. i miss the times where we drove to lower seletar for walks or at times sitting in the car and juz enjoy the night breeze... i miss havin alot of free time with him so we could go out to enjoy ourselves... i wan free time!! hiax.. i us to have carefree time to spend!!
i've always seen others celebrate their anniversary in fashion... hiax... mine would be alone nahx.. he would be in camp.. even if he were not... we are on tight budget.... so we couldnt afford... in the future would we still have the heart to celebrate? or would we end up lik couples who thinks that such long relationship doesnt need any celebration anymore?... thinking thinking.....
soFt kisses ............ <3{7:08 AM]
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Its a lousy week for me! First, my favourite armani exchange slippers broke, then my fujitsu com crash. All these of which i have to replace new ones.. omg now im on super budget, and trying to work as many shifts as i can to get money back. Thanks to laogong.. if not i wouldnt have known what to do... im still trying out my new com... hope it turns out ok...
Everyone gives me negative views on buying these.. hiax but im on budget sia... wat you expect man... then kor say sony expensive... duh~~ i don care la...
soFt kisses ............ <3{7:33 AM]
Monday, November 2, 2009
for the past few times that i have missed lesson i nv regretted and have always spend my time doing things that is worth this time that i have gave up from sch... becoz everytime i missed it, its either i choose to do so to acc him when he was injured or even if i did really overslept, i could have headed of to school, and not find him instead.
today.. i felt its a totally waste, so next time.. even if i do over slept... i would choose to go class late rather than thinking of going to acc him... today is totally crap and i would nv repeat it again....and today was my last allowance to miss cls.. and its a total waste.. crap..
i have and know my own limits... don teach me what to do for school....
soFt kisses ............ <3{1:16 AM]
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
i envy others who gets to hang out with a whole bunch of friends regularly.. arent everyone suppose to pick up some friends along their way in life?.. wheres mine? i've been alone by myself for 3 yrs in poly.. and its really torturing to see ppl enjoy in a grps while im always on my own... i tried to enjoy being alone.. but i really cant...
today weixiong an yong xiang .co came to my store while they were hanging out in town ... hiax.. makes me envy them so much... hiax...
dear was given 3 week mc due to his leg injury.. poor boi... guess he wld be bored to death le ba... being in army he has his own aims and decisions to make.. but whateva it is.. i would always support him no matter...i don care what rank he gets... nor how much his pay.. i juz hope his leg would recover and have things back to normal... he muz be in real pain nahx... i only hope i could be of more help.. but other than accompanying him.. i dunno what else i cld do to ease his discomfort...
i hope to finish this term as soon as possible and start with my working life soon.. tired of being alone in school always... hope i get my desired job too.
soFt kisses ............ <3{9:39 AM]
Sunday, October 11, 2009
im kinda confused with my life now... becoz i feel that im no where... as though everything i do or ard me have been visiting? brushing pass me?.. its like... touch and go feeling... hiax... shuttle run...?
my sch seems empty to me.. everyday i go to sch.. i go my fyp... i go home... no friends to hang out... no nth... its juz duty... my relationship?... ever since he is in army i felt empty... every weekend that he bk out i am elated... every time i send him back in i felt really sad... when he gets weekend duties? gone.... its lik he is visiting me every weekend.. its kinda torturous for both of us.. hiax.. but what i can be sure is that no matter how hard... i wld wait..... And how abt work.. i don really know...i simply juz work... enjoy when i can.. if not... i juz go thru my duties as normal and go home... hiax..
there is always a start and an end to things.. when good things start for me, shld i worry then it would end sooner or later and fret abt bad things happening?....i really dunno... logically it is waste of time becoz i wun noe when it comes an goes.... but once u tried being truely happy and contented, but the next minute u get thrown off lik rubbish... its very unlikely you can forget that feeling...
other than having so little time to be with him... im truely content and happy with this relationship now.... and am abit afraid... hiax... but i know i shldnt.. i shld juz enjoy and let it be... but once in a while..those bad thoughts juz wldnt go away...how can i make it go away?
from a thrifty gal.. i guess im turning into shopaholic.... im wanting alot of things nowadays.. an am trying to rein in my shopping desires so that i wouldnt spend the money away that ive worked so hard for.... but for my to-buy list till the end of next yr......
1) new book shelf( my old one is collapsing!)
2) small flat screen tv for my soon to be new room...
3) tv table
4) bean bag..( bought but have not collected yet )well for the endless to-buy list would be...
1) clothes
2) accessories
3) shoes
soFt kisses ............ <3{6:37 AM]
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
I nv liked perfumes.. i always sneeze or get runny nose when i encounter them... but ironically... i lik Elizabeth Arden's Green Tea Scent Spray very much.... juz saw it today at northpt's SALSA shop that juz open a few days ago... $60 for a 100ml bottle.. kinda gd deal? not really sure.. heard i can get it at better price in Mustafa Centre. Didnt buy becoz.. although i love it very much.. but its not worth spending so much on it now...
laogong always say.. don buy it on impluse... haha... so im a gd gal right....^^ nahx.. i've been buying so many things on impluse last month... so i ought to keep rein on my spending desires.. thats why i try not to look at apparels shops today...
*sighs*.. maybe i can get it next month.. see how it goes ba...
soFt kisses ............ <3{7:14 AM]
Wed~~
ate yoshinoya alone today in northpt before heading of to sch.... @.@
im meeting my fyp team later... frm the looks of it.. i guess i would have a hard time this semester.. hiax...wish me luck ppl...
im out of things to write.. bored.. if only he is here... *sighs*
soFt kisses ............ <3{1:11 AM]
